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Monday, September 20th, 2010
11:47 am - Da fuck

Over the weekend  I felt this need to journal.  Some things were taking place around me and I kept on feeling the need to write about them.  These are things that I've known that bother me from my friends but never had acted on them... until this year.

I have a friend that happens to be undocumented in this country and thinks that owns the world.  She is living her vida loca thinking that she is a model owning the latest fashions from around the world. She makes ok money so that allows her to buy things but whenever she needs to conduct business line any other person, she finds bumps in the road and looks for ways out to satisfy those unecessary needs that she has... i.e. now she wants an iphone.  I told her that in my opinion, she needed to buy a computer with internet before she would get an iphone... for her not to think that I was going to solve her problems setting this device on my computer and always taking care of things like I do with her ipod.  Last week she left me this long ass message how she needed new music and she wanted again to come to my house to upload music into her ipod.  I ignored the voicemessage.
Last night she called me asking if I could go online to get her a phone number for a store that sells a sweater that she saw in a magazine and it's fabu.  I was nice and got her the number... they only have stores in London so I gave her the London number... she called me back and said "the call is not going through."  I said oh I wonder what's going on... do you have a long distance carrier?  Then she proceeded to ask me if I could buy her the sweater and that she would give me the money.  I simply said:  the phone number that I gave you is the one listed on their website, keep on calling.  If you can not be fabulous on your own, don't be.

I've been hanging out with a latino couple that I've known for about 2 years.  One of them thinks that everyone has the hots for him. I used to smile to his comments until yesterday that I decided to turn my face away and engage in conversation with someone else.  If everyone would be after you, then you would not be with who you are stupid... deal with it.  If that was the case, you would be whoring around like single people do. Stop your diluted I'm hot ideas and deal with reality.

Da fuck


current mood: pensive

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Friday, April 30th, 2010
8:37 am - I've snapped out of it...
I knew this depressive mode was not going to last long in me.  I have snapped out of it.  I have to tell you I didn't like it at all.

This will be my last weekend at the University going through coursework.  After this week, you will have to call me Doctor.  J/K

There is too much going on this weekend.  I will start heading to school by 1PM and was planning on staying out there the weekend but I will be coming home every evening.  I want to ride my bike there. It's about 40 miles away from the city... will it rain? 

Tomorrow there is a birthday party of a long time friend... and also an event for an organization that I began helping on their board of directors... decisions to make... which one should I attend?

The weekend promises to be good... the real question after this weekend is... what the hell am I going to do with my free weekends?  Ayyy

current mood: horny

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Tuesday, April 27th, 2010
3:59 pm - I feel like I've hit rock bottom
These last couple of days I've not been my usual self.  I'm usually someone that remains positive regardless of what life brings.  I've learned to turn adversity into positive experiences but these last couple of days, I've found it difficult to do,

For the past week, I've had low back pain.  I took advils as regular pills, two in the morning and two at night... a trick that a RN friend of mine taught ne but yesterday after a week of dealing with the pain, decided it was time to go and see the doctor after the pain was not going away.  To top it all, yesterday I felt like I was getting a throat infection and sure enough, my throat was in fire all night.  I had to call my dr. today to ask him to call in a prescription for me to the pharmacy.  He just finally did it and now I will go and get those pills.

I know good things are coming my way, but I don't seem to find my muse... don't have any motivation and/or desire for any aspirations at this time. 

I think that I've hit rock bottom... anything after this should be ok to handle... I guess.

current mood: crappy

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Saturday, March 13th, 2010
10:31 am - So many changes...
I can't believe how much time has passed since I did an entry in you dear journal.

This past month I had the pleasure of doing another presentation at Creating Change 2010... wow...

2009 was a year of change.  After a very tough year, my ex and I decided to go our own separate ways.  I think it was the best decision we did togehter since we couldn't tolerate one another. 

The beginning of this year has been very busy wiht the activism that I have been doing for the past years... I was in Puerto Rico at the end of January, Dallas during the first week in February... then DC... then NYC the first week of this March month...

I will soon be finished with the coursework of my PhD program... one more month and then I will be given one year to finish up my dissertation process.  I can't wait for me to be on my own doing my research...

I can't believe that a friend of mine that posted something in my previous 2009 post passes away.  I was shocked when I heard about it...

In the meantime.... I'm here trying to remain busy... cheers.

current mood: melancholy

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Wednesday, January 21st, 2009
12:12 pm - I have to applaud the efforts of Starbucks.
Yesterday I was happy to see that Starbucks was really getting a competitive advantage from the presidential inauguration.  I think that you know what I'm talking about it.

I will try to do the same in my job... I will use people's excitement to get the most out of them.

My favorite inclusion word of the week is "we."

current mood: hopeful

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Tuesday, January 20th, 2009
1:40 pm - Another presidential inauguration...
I hope that it's not just me but... why are people crying and being so emotional about this presidential inauguration?

I personally haven't heard anything new that we have not heard in the past inaugurations and the promises of politicians.

Is it that he is the first Black president that the U.S.A. has?  Is it that people feel hopeless and Barack's charisma gives them the sense of hope?

I personally remain impartial.  I have been close enough to politicians that I personally haven't seen anything new so far.  The interesting way how his speech was delivered is simple by using "we" into anything that he said. 

Do "we" truly believe that we're included in the decision making process now?

current mood: blah

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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008
1:46 pm - Have you received your Tetu calendar

For those suscribers to Tetu... have you received your 2009 calendar?

I still haven't received mine and I think that probably it got stolen....

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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008
9:29 pm - Just want to say hello
I just want to say hello to all of you.  Paul thank you for checking on me and my progress of my life.

As you can imagine, I have been extremely busy not just with school but also with work. I changed jobs as of the first of last month.... so getting a rythm at a new place is always interesting.

I'm currently as you can imagine, writing and getting my thoughts together to present a proposal to the Academy of Management for a symposium.  I won't elaborate much on this subject since the process is very competitive and I don't want to ruin my chance of presenting there.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still alive and having my fun at the gym with some of my buddies...

I will be in Texas for X-mas and the new year.  I will be in Devner at the end of January to present at the Creating Change Conference.

Don't be shy... say hello to me once in a while.

You can alwyas write to me at prjac1@aol.com.


current mood: awake

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Thursday, August 7th, 2008
7:49 pm - Something to brag about...

I am so fucking happy and I have no one to share my excitement and those that I have around me don't really understand why what I'm communicating is a big deal.

The reson for my lack of posts is because now I have a different avenue to focus my writing to.  As many of you know, I started a PhD program in Organization Development about 3.5 months to be exact and after getting my first paper evaluated, I have my dissertation chair.  It is the colleague that I thougth of right from the beginning that I would love to have as a chair of my dissertation commitee.  

The selection of your dissertation committee takes place further into the proram but today I was approached by this individual that is interested in being my chair.  Traditionally you have to research about their topics of interest, appeal to them and approach them to see if they are interested in what you have to say... and yes... I was approached just right after my first paper!

When I got the call at my office, I could not believe what I was being told.  My first question was:  So you don't think that I am crazy ah?  You beieve in and you're interested in what I'm writing about right?  

The answer was "yes, what you are communicating is extremely exciting... no one has approached the field from this perspective and I think that if you keep on writing about your topic and the way you did it in this first paper, you will get many of your articles published."

My next question was... but I had not written a professional paper in about 8 years... is it ok?  "I can't believe you are saying this, you haven't written a paper in 8 years and this is the way you write about the field? "  I said yes.  "Well we have lots of work to do together then."

I am still excited about that phone call.

current mood: excited

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Tuesday, March 11th, 2008
9:37 pm - Hoorrraaaayyyyy!!!!

As of April 4, 2008, I am back at school.

I got accepted into the PhD program in Organization Development at Benedictine University.

I am really looking forward to start school.

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Friday, September 14th, 2007
5:14 pm - Ottawa part 1
I can't  believe that I haven't had a chance to write on my journal...

Too many t hings have happened since my last post.  

Let's start with things that I can remember...  Well August 24-26 I was in Ottawa for their Ottawa Leather Fest.  It was a very well put pansexual leather run.  I had been asked to go and facilitate a caning and paddling and I agreed to so.  Friday early morning I got to O'hare to get an early flight to Ottawa.  Drama... I was bumped to the next flight because it was a small plane and they had enough weight on the plane and it needed extra fuel in it... darn... I had to wait for the next flight around noon. At first I was upset because I had everything planned and now things had to wait.  The good thing that came out of it is that I got a $250 voucher for the incovenience... oh well.

During the flight when I was filiing out the Canadian customs delcaration form, I realized that I was bringing weapons into the country... The paddles and canes that I had put in my suitcase are considered weapons.  Oh well, I hoped for the best, for them not to open my suit case.  We arrived in Ottawa and the immigration officer graciously welcomed me with "Bonjour, bienvenue au Canada."  I sighed of happiness and started my conversation in French with the officer.  He made the statement that my passport was new.  I let him flip through the pages to see what else he would say and the flipping of pages continued until I told him that it was a new passport because my old one had expired and asked him if he wanted to see my old passport that I had it with me.  He said yes and when he flipped the first page, he had enough... LOL
He stamped my passport and said "Have fun."  I proceeded to customs and luckily they were not interested in opening my suitcase...cool.

Since I arrived later than I expected, I decided to catch a cab instead of taking the bus as my friends had advised me to do.  As soon as I go to the beautiful boutique hotel (www.arcthehotel.com) I called Michel to get the plans going.  We were supposed to do lunch but it was already around 5 and it was time to go to the opening of the event.  We decided that we would meet at the event and decide if we wanted to do dinner instead.  I wanted to be at the event because Alex was presenting his new movie about BDSM Couples.

current mood: busy

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Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
10:43 am - Poll
Poll #1034976 To do or not to do poll

If the opportunity presented to you, would you do porn?

Fuck yeah!
Never will

If you have done porn, how was your experience?

current mood: curious

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Monday, July 30th, 2007
11:51 am - Weekend update
This was a fun weekend!

Friday evening I started the weekend by going to Fiesta del Sol to eat dinner.  I love going to this festival because the Mexican food that they sell is very traditional.  Year after year, I'm loyal to Jovita's enchiladas.  I love the way they make them.  It's sad that they haven't opened a restaurant where their recipe could gain further attention.  For $5 you get a plate with 4 enchiladas!  I can't believe I had dinner here in Chicago for $5... unbelievable...  

After eating dinner I walked around the festival to see what was new...  I was fascinated to find out some cool shirts by www.no-manches.com .  They are cool.  

After relaxing a bit at home, I got ready to go out.  Upon my arrival at Touché, Jeff was waiting outside of Mephisto.  After saying hello he asked me if I could help him load the firemen coats and boots that he was picking up from there.  The drama is that Joey and Rob (IL Leather boy and Sir) got evicted from the place.  Joey and Rob went into business with Eric of Mephisto and what I hear is that Mephisto is in financial trouble.  Joey claims that he is already owed $50K and got into an argument with Eric.  So Eric in his rage evicted them.  Joey is a piercer who had his shop at the Mephisto store.  Poor Joey... 

After helping Jeff get his 30 pairs of firmen boots and 30 coats, I was ready for some cold beers.  We went into my bar and started drinking.  I drank 3 non stop.  I was so thirsty...  Then lit up my cigar and prepared to have a good time.  I happened to run into Tim timsimms and talked to him for a bit.  He was celebrating his birthday this weekend!  Happy birthday again papi! 

After Touché Jeff, Ursus, George and I went to Jackhammer for a bit... Then I headed to Charlies to meet Antonio, Edgardo, Diego and Antonio's friends Manuel and Jean Carlo that were visiting from Puerto Rico.  Manuel was just a hot chocolate man!  I did not leave Charlies until they closed at 4:00 A.M.  I stopped by Manhandler for a quickie and went home to sleep.

Saturday I got up around noon and cleaned the house.  Since we haven't had a cleaning lady for a while, our house was a disaster.  I finally had the energy to clean it.  I am happy to report that I now have a very clean house!  I am proud that I did it.  I love cleanliness but hate doing the cleaning...  By the time I realized it was already dark and got ready to go and judge the Cowboy Eye for the Leather Guy contest.  I had to dress appropriately for the occasion.  I was asked though if for sure I did not want to be in the contest.  I said no that I had to give a chance to others that have never been cowboys before to experience that.  Since I am from Texas... you know I have cowboy boots and hats and all the garb...  It was fun.  I had to leave early because the manager of the store that provided the clothing for the event wanted to come home with me.  He is a very masculine muscurlar latino man, but not my type...  He asked me though if I wanted to be in their fashion show two weeks from now that benefits the Gay Rodeo and I said of course.  I think that he felt that since he asked me to do that, that I was going to sleep with him... don't know...  Here's a picture of that night.

Sunday, I headed to Homo Depot to get the threshold piece of wood that I needed for the bedroom.  Since I installed the slate floor in the bedroom the threshold was the only piece that I needed so my floor would be completely finished.  I had procrastinated for a couple of weeks until this Sunday... I did that during the day then went to eat enchiladas at Fiesta again!!!

That's all my friends!


current mood: happy

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Tuesday, July 17th, 2007
10:43 am - Unidos LGBT
Dear friends,

I am part of the board of a national Latino LGBT human rights organization.  This organizations is Unidos LGBT ( www.unidoslgbt.org ).  

We are currently seeking nominations to represent the the West Coast and South East regions.

These individuals will represent their respective region at the national level.  Basic requirements include that you are Latino or of Latino origin and that you identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender or queer, and involved with human rights issues in your community.

If interested please complete the nomination form on the website.

If you have further questions, I am happy to entertain them.



current mood: happy

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Tuesday, June 26th, 2007
10:03 am - Post pride weekend

Pride weekends was good this year.

Friday the event at the Center was very nice.  The food was just excellent... the drinks even better.  I tried the new Chill beer.  It's a beer chelada style... not bad.  I kind of like it.  BTW I'm on the board of directors of this organization.  If you want to check out what they do, the website is www.centeronhalsted.org .  

After the bbque, my gang and I did a leather invasion at Cellblock.  Yes you heard it... Cellblock is supposed to be a leather bar here in Chicago that has lost it's leather appeal.  I was horrified when I went into what it used to be the back room.  They painted the space some terracota color and they put high tables and stools instead of the chain web and the St. Andrew's cross and the holding cell.  I can't belive it.  There is no leather bar in the gay ghetto now!

Saturday I attended the Pride Fest during the day.  Saw enough drag performances... enough said!  We ended up at Touché for drinks and fun.

Sunday I met the gang in front of Cellblock to watch the parade.  It was a fun parade.  We headed to Touché for bbque afterwards.  

Yesterday was a day to recover!


current mood: content

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Tuesday, June 5th, 2007
4:02 pm - IML Pictures

Here are some pictures of me during IML:

This is the contestant photo they used for the website

Just being myself silly with my fellow contestant brothers

Getting ready for Pecs and Personality

My backside for Pecs and Personality

Taking almost everything off... second appearance of Pecs and Personality

Second appearance for Pecs and Personality

Sunday contest announcement of the top 20 finalists

Being happy for making top 20

Hug from Travis (Mr. SF) for making top 20

Being silly at the Jock portion of the top 20 competition

current mood: content

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3:24 pm - Life after IML

First of all, I have to say I'm sorry to many of you for now giving you the necessary attention during this hectic time.  Sorry my friends!

IML provided me with many experiences and lessons at the same time.  Overall I have to say that I am satisfied with my participation at this contest.

Eventhough I placed 8th out of 52 contestants, I have to confess that I am a terrible looser.  I don't deal well with not winning.  Since I clearly realized this negative trait of me, I now know that I have to work on it.  I have to learn that I can't win all the time.  I have to digest that eventhough I didn not win this competition that I have to consider myself lucky because I did what I set myself to do... even going against the current... even telling enough to the IML producer... even if the opportunity cost meant not to win IML.

I am a content man after IML.

I will post more pictures later.

current mood: content

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Thursday, April 19th, 2007
11:55 am - I'm fucking busy
Life the last couple of weeks have been very busy.  I don't seem to have enough time to complete everything that I have to do at work, home, etc.

This weekend I'll be in DC.  Anyone wants to come out to the Eagle on Saturday to the fundraiser that I'll be hosting there?

current mood: cranky

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Friday, March 30th, 2007
12:08 pm - The weekend is here!

I can't believe that the weekend is here again.

For anyone that is interested in coming out Saturday night to Touché, I will be judging the "Leather eye for the preppy guy" contest.

Come out, come out where ever you are!

current mood: excited

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Monday, March 12th, 2007
4:29 pm - Let me know...
1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you.
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What's your favorite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. In one word, how would you describe me?
34. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

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